Clinic

My sister-in-law took me to clinic today as my husband is super busy today at work. It was great to have her company. It's funny that she's helped me in the gym, get my port accessed, etc. while I was in Edmonton for my six-week physio program, but she hasn't been to my regular clinic yet. So today was a first for us.

I went into clinic today because I have been really short of breath. I'm SOB all of the time, even at rest. It's exhausting. I have been off IVs less than three weeks and I feel like I've gone downhill. I'm not coughing more or coughing up more, which makes my shortness of breath a bit mysterious. I wasn't expecting to be admitted today, but I was thinking maybe some home IVs would help or something different... I don't know. Maybe I could try some inhaled steroids or maybe there's something else out there.

I wasn't expecting what I was given, that's for sure. It was a prescription for an anti-anxiety drug. Don't get me wrong, I believe that drugs can help control symptoms and I'm not adverse to trying something new if there's a reason. But I don't feel like anxiety is my problem, I am short of breath! All I wanted to know is if this is my new normal, and it sounds like it is. It just seems like I got to this new point very quickly and I'd like to try to reverse it before I accept it!

I need to think this over and decide what I'm going to do. I am leaning towards trying to deal with this on my own before using the anti-anxiety meds. I've already made it this far without them!

This is not what I was expecting today, that's for sure! The first thing I did when I got home was repack my transplant bag for good measure!